wanna cry without a reason

I don't what this feeling , random so cruel really complicated .
honestly , i must faced that a problem but such as crawl on the sludge difficult ya it's hard.
i'm fallen in love but sometimes i hate this feeling i really hate .
God, would you help me for stop this feeling now?
i wanna get brainwash i didn't want to in love again again again . Because in love is same with tears.